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Sep. 8th, 2011

03:35 am - Life show us

Tonight I find myself still thinkingabout the on e that I let get away. I fell for her the first time I.ssw her in her purple sweeter her dow eyes that 80.s like hair that smile that could stop a train. I find myself looking for pics of her, listening to the music that we did.
The nights we spent the fun we had. I know what I should have done but I was not want ing the same thing as her . Now I dream p of it all she was way to good for me I joke about that then but now I know it to be so true. I think tomorrow I wil have to cal her to se if we can get coffee or something. She just to perfect to forget.

All hopes and dreams come in to view as the sun goes down.

Current Mood: optimisticoptimistic
Current Music: Locero slow dancing

Jan. 3rd, 2011

12:05 am - its all in the end of it all.

I loaded up this page to write something but i got nothing nothing more to bitch about.. this is the year that shit goes right.. if not im going to start killing people for fun.............

Dec. 26th, 2010

12:16 am - dec 25 2010

I have talk a lot about how I do not like this day. This year I was starting to think it was going to be okay. But with put skipping a beat it all goes down hill. Find out someone is dieing, was ask to stay in this town, find out were not fell the same thing. Which I still think is BULLSHIT........ For one week I thought I was going to have a good new years...... but that just got shit on.....in the last 3 months I have seen 6 engagement 1 person get married. 4 have kids.... I cant do this much longer.....................


Forgive me I’m trying to find
My calling, I’m calling at night
Don’t mean to be a bother
But have you seen this girl?
She’s been running through my dreams
And its driving me crazy it seems
I’m gonna ask her to marry me

i might just spend my new year with the bottle...

Dec. 18th, 2010

02:37 pm - ?questions

You know that moment when you ask a questions one of those life changing questions? Them moment when you hear nothing and only see what you what to see. It this part of time that we don't look at, it's this point in which we see are self in future. We see want we want and hope to happen. But in the back of all the good thoughts in the far back room of that good thought we have the wrong movie playing. Its a movie with all the wrong turns. In this day we ask questions many different ways. I don't know if any are the "easy way" I do know when asking in things over email or a text that moment can take way to long. Because of that long moment you start to see more of the wrong movie.

Current Mood: optimisticoptimistic
Current Music: trio

05:00 am - the

The day started off good.
The mid day was nice
The night time was fine and fun.
the after party time was nice.
the ride home by my self,
miss one thing?

Dec. 2nd, 2010

01:39 am - its never going to be fair

This week it has come to me that im sick of it just being me. I come to the point in which i don't to date someone i want to be with someone. I think I have found that someone but I dont know if I should doing seeing that i dont know whats going to happen when schools done. and I know she wants a family and i want that in 5 years min. we have gone out before many time but just as friends and now I want to be more. I had point in time the other day that would have been great to ask her out..but for some reason i chick out. the drive home i was so mad with myself... I know im better then this.......today should have called her but i let my head talk me out of it. I look at my sing shit i put it on it if it tells me to go for it then i will.....if this dont work im getting me a twin size bed.........

Nov. 25th, 2010

08:34 am - brain trust

I have come to a point in my life that should be going in one way or another. Its not, I fine myself none sure of which way to go. It's time like this that I listen to my brain trust. I ask then tell all coming from differnt point and more likly they all my it to the same place.

This week was about love or I should say lack of. One person told me to just go for becuase as he said,"I look for that reason it won't work". And he's right I do I count last week the ones who I feel got away. I ran out of room on one hand.The female have told me to look at a point in time in which I feel my life will be my best. Look to see who's next to you, who's in the room with you. Can you see her does she stand out more then any other.Other have came to something close but after time sitting around thinking about her I yep wonder do I want to throw what could be for another woman.

I keep jumping around with nos and yes. I think about the time we have spent and how she gets to do the things I have done. But then again I need to get away and I know she wants this place to be home.

Nov. 24th, 2010

02:23 am - lost love

In my time I have be a luck man with the ladies, but in the last 2 years I have found myself running from them. Not in an bad way just because I think I'm no good enough for them. My friends have told me it all she "you two are so cute together". I just feel as of right now it would best if it never happen......... I know, I could fall for her easy hell i'm at the half way point right now.

Nov. 21st, 2010

12:31 am - back again

After taking a long time off from LJ, I;m coming back...............same fuck up writing just not so drunk......

Mar. 23rd, 2008

03:34 am - im drunk and i thoyou i should be with you

with all the wrong
and all the rights
i stilll find you the one
i want to hold at night

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